So today I started another year of highschool.
Dang already a junior. . .just one more year to go and i'm on my own~
So school was epic win!
I got every class i wanted and I'm not so alone in some of my classes.
Um i have lunch with most of the best people ever!
Miss some people though. . .D8>
We now have our new school campus to roam around, which is pretty confusing. . but I'll get it down sooner of later. . .stairs are a pain though! XD

Ah so yeah, school made me feel better, compared to my aweful morning that almost made the first day the WORST day.

Yet even though I have school now, I still feel trapped and miserable in this house.

So this morning, my mom had the nerve to say that I'm not allowed to join any clubs or do anything after school. She even had more of a nerve to say i cant go anywhere or do anything with my friends.
So yeah i have my laptop back, which is cool and all, but i cant even call my friends!
I can't even type the things she said, about how upset she is. My brother had to come out and back me up because my mom was just saying selfish things. Do you know how horrible it feels to have your own mother say she wants to leave, that she hates being home?

You know. . i thought parents are suppose to love you no matter what. . .

Dont get me wrong, i love my mom, i'd do anything for her. . .
But her obssession with cleaning and perfectionism is just hard on us. Really sometimes i want to rest from school and chill. . .rather than ironing my clothes or cleaning the bathroom every other day.

I know cleanliness is good. . .
But really. . .
Do i have to get in trouble for not ironing my clothes in the morning because i might be late for school?
Or possibly not cleaning the bathroom to her standards.
Or feeling tired from doing other things and wanting to relax for a while.

I know kids that get grounded for really bad things.
Like stealing, or ditching, or having horrible grades, or maybe even talking back to the parents.
I never did anything like that.
My dad always said that people make mistakes, we can't always live up to some standards.
My mom doesn't seem to get that.

So.
I'm stuck.
Here.
In the house with just my laptop.
That and school is the only communication I seem to have from outside of home.

I hate living here. . .with her. . .when she's like this.
I dont think it'll get better because its been going on for a long time.
So this year might suck a little.
No. It might suck a lot.

So people IRL.
If you ask me how I'm doing at home. . i might cry.
Just a warning, 'cause typing this. . made me cry a bit.

TTYL
~Psylla