On a tutorial that is.
And some other pic that'll i'll do after~

Anyway!
'ello everyone~
It's Thanksgiving break for me this week~
HORRAY~
It's well needed indeed too~
I'm so burno-out because of school and I'm only a JUNIOR.
Imagine Senior year, oh god.
This had led me to decide wether i should take a year off from school, after highschool, or not. I haven't yet decided.
My mother is alright with it, but my father is iffy. I think he thinks I'll get lazy and not want to go to college, but actually college has been something I've wanted since I was younger.
Just that, I'm tired and i miss having the time and effort to draw.
Finally I've been able to get some insperation flowing by drawing little sketches, but it's always so rare for me seeing that AP English eats at my soul every week.
It's funny how only ONE class keeps me filled with work to do everyday. It's ridiculous.
But then again that is my fault after all~ Haha~

On a better note, my family decided, weeks ago, to change Vash's name (my puppy) to Link.
SO far he's been doing great!
Besides the point that he's always hyper and running a muck. . DX
He's another reason why i get all bent of of shape recently. -nod nod-
But it's so hard to be angry at him for so long, he always looks like he's about to cry. ;A;
And then I feel uber bad for even yelling at him!
Already he's nearing to be 3 months old. Geez how time flys~
He's even gotten a bit biger and my brother is estimating that he'll be bigger than my cat. IDK though, I kind of hope not. Poor Kitkat, if Link gets bigger he'll beat up Kitkat badly for sure.
I hope they get along sooner or later. XDD;;

Oh so Christmas is coming~
YAAAA~
No drawings this year though, sadly.
I dont even know what to draw for others and i know my procrastinating and stressful school work is going to get in the way if i draw anyone anything.
So yeeeah~
Maybe next year?
IDK, i'm still deciding >>;;

But yeah,I've been tired and sleepy and drained~
But i'm still in an awesome mood!
But that's my little update for now~ TTYL~
~ Psylla

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY~

Haven't been very active lately~
hahaha~
So i thought giving a short update would help a bit. -nod nod-

So first off, the biggest thing that is keeping me from fully paying attention to my laptop is my new puppy~! For now his name is Vash, but my family is trying to convince me to change it. ;A;
I wanted it Len. . ffff. but they said that name was gay. WTF.
So yeah he's 7 weeks old now and is a HUGE hand full, but i freakin love him! -snuggles snuggles-

Second problem is all my school work.
Mostly English.
Ah i'm always crammed everyday doing work and such, even if i'm not suppose to have homework i have work that due in a few weeks. . and it's A LOT.
Gah and i haven't touched it seeing that I've been potty training Vash. . DX

But yeah~
I've been drawing -nod nod-.
I have like two sketches that i need to scan and color for you guys~
Possibly will once my puppy gets that he goes bathroom OUTSIDE.

Mmm. .
Anything else?
OH. . !
I'll be sending you something soon, once my dad takes me to mail~

Erm soooo~ nothing more to say~
TTYL GUYS~ -waves-

MORE ACTIVE WATCHERS.

Like for real.
I was looking through my friend/watcher list and realized how many of them dont even come on anymore or not even comment! ;A;
I feel so unloved!
Geebus. I love comments.
Like mega a lot.
Especially RIDICULOUSLY long ones.
Or even small ones are ok too.
AH favs and runs are loved too. . (I suuure do that A LOT hahah~ -waves hand- )

BUT REALLY.

Maybe i should like. . put a critque thing on my pics too so like all those art critiques that scare me can put some negative comments that will EMPOWER me to be AWESOME.

Enough of my pointless chatter.

I come to a relization that I need to like catch people attention.
My art is BLEH and not really original. . at least i think.
_{Some of you are probably thinking WTF SHUT UP. -stab-}
But that's what i think.
I'm still trying to do that whole OMG LOOK AT THIS PIC IT'LL BLOW YOUR MIND kind of picture. But haven't gotten anything yet. . hahah -shot-
Hopefully i improve a bit more. -nod-

Lets see. . LIFE what has happened?
Well. . I'm doing pretty FREAKIN AWESOME at school.
Especially in English Ap, SUPRISINGLY.
I'm pretty happy that my essays dont suck booty!

AND OMG PAINTING AND AP ART.
GOSH GEEBUS WATER COLORS ARE HARD TO MASTER.
But I'm having fuuuun~
Specially being with in AP and her EPIC WINNESS.
We get to have parties together ALL THE FREAKIN TIME.
Ok no not really, but it's HILARIOUS in that class.
Especially with AHAHA~ She makes me LOL so hard sometimes~
The table in the back probably hates us because we're so AWESOME RIDICULOUSLY loud. Yeeeeeah~ But we rock. Foh sho'

UM.
MY SPANISH TEACHER IS SO CONCEITED.
Damn him and his good looks and MONEY. (Srsly he shouldnt even be a teacher. . wtf)
Supposedly he was in movies.
One being Dirty Deeds. . idk what that is. .never heard of it but OK.
He's fun though.
Being able to speak French, Spanish, and english at once is CRAZY.
His accent in french makes me smile.

Forget Algebra 2 and History. . .
They suck.
Well Algebra more. . .gosh it's so lame and boring. . .
I have a nice teacher for history but everyone in that class are. . GAH.

Um as far as my personal life at home goes. . .
I still sucks.

Welp anyway!
I'll have some sketches to put up possibly this weekend to show you all WTF I'm doing~
For now CIAO~
~Psylla

So today I started another year of highschool.
Dang already a junior. . .just one more year to go and i'm on my own~
So school was epic win!
I got every class i wanted and I'm not so alone in some of my classes.
Um i have lunch with most of the best people ever!
Miss some people though. . .D8>
We now have our new school campus to roam around, which is pretty confusing. . but I'll get it down sooner of later. . .stairs are a pain though! XD

Ah so yeah, school made me feel better, compared to my aweful morning that almost made the first day the WORST day.

Yet even though I have school now, I still feel trapped and miserable in this house.

So this morning, my mom had the nerve to say that I'm not allowed to join any clubs or do anything after school. She even had more of a nerve to say i cant go anywhere or do anything with my friends.
So yeah i have my laptop back, which is cool and all, but i cant even call my friends!
I can't even type the things she said, about how upset she is. My brother had to come out and back me up because my mom was just saying selfish things. Do you know how horrible it feels to have your own mother say she wants to leave, that she hates being home?

You know. . i thought parents are suppose to love you no matter what. . .

Dont get me wrong, i love my mom, i'd do anything for her. . .
But her obssession with cleaning and perfectionism is just hard on us. Really sometimes i want to rest from school and chill. . .rather than ironing my clothes or cleaning the bathroom every other day.

I know cleanliness is good. . .
But really. . .
Do i have to get in trouble for not ironing my clothes in the morning because i might be late for school?
Or possibly not cleaning the bathroom to her standards.
Or feeling tired from doing other things and wanting to relax for a while.

I know kids that get grounded for really bad things.
Like stealing, or ditching, or having horrible grades, or maybe even talking back to the parents.
I never did anything like that.
My dad always said that people make mistakes, we can't always live up to some standards.
My mom doesn't seem to get that.

So.
I'm stuck.
Here.
In the house with just my laptop.
That and school is the only communication I seem to have from outside of home.

I hate living here. . .with her. . .when she's like this.
I dont think it'll get better because its been going on for a long time.
So this year might suck a little.
No. It might suck a lot.

So people IRL.
If you ask me how I'm doing at home. . i might cry.
Just a warning, 'cause typing this. . made me cry a bit.

TTYL
~Psylla

Been gone for a while.
Reason being: My Mom like always.
'Course it's always that reason.

So I got in trouble again, for a stupid reason like any other time I'm grounded.

That was like. . .a few weeks ago.
I just kept forgetting to post a journal all the days she was gone.

Gosh I'm so fustrated, I've missed so freakin much this Summer its not even funny. I've been up and down in the slumps for the last few weeks and I hate it.

I hate negativity all together.

And school is coming up too. That'll be better! Staying away from home on the weekdays~ One of my many reasons why i like school. Ah and all my friends! I've missed them so much since being in solitude! <3333

So yeah,
nothing new and exciting, of course.
Been drawing though!
Trying to keep up with my practice, trying not to get rusty. XD
Want to draw something AMAZINGLY AWESOME that will blow everyone's socks off. . .but i still haven't come up with anything. I'll get around to that hopefully soon.

Till then I got a pic to color~
TTYL.
~Psylla